From the beginning of existence until Sri Aurobindo's departure, I was in the consciousness that one can climb up, one can know, one can have all the experiences (in fact, one had them), but when one came back in the body..., it was these old for-mi-da-ble mental laws which governed everything. And then, all these years have been years to prepare —to prepare—to free oneself and to prepare—, and these last days, it was... ah! the PHYSICAL confirmation, made by the body, that it had changed....